Paula Abdul is rightly freaked out by the suicide of a crazy fan and former Idol wannabe named Paula Goodspeed, 30, who was found dead in her car which was parked near Abdul’s home on Wednesday.

Now OK! magazine is reporting that Abdul, 45, who is said to be shocked and saddened by the tragedy, is wanting to leave her judge’s chair on “American Idol” anyway and move on with new projects - even more so now that Idol has added a 4th judge, Kara DioGuardi.